I suppose I realized that I had depression before I even finished school despite taking a few years to do anything about it.
I took fortune of my father’s health insurance when I still had the chance and reached out for both therapy and possible medication when it became apparent that my complications were chronic and not acute.
However, the first antidepressant I tried back then was not a pleasant experience. I tried speed once to study for a test and remember thinking that it felt like a weak version of the speed I had tried. Since both drugs operate on the serotonin receptors, it’s possible they share some similar effects. That unique antidepressant wasn’t a superb match for me, so I tried at least a half dozen other medications for my depression and they all had varying complications to them. One of them gave myself and others dire manic episodes and resulted in a hospitalization that lasted a few days. Needless to say, I wasn’t responding well to pharmaceutical antidepressants and was starting to know that I would never find a drug that would help with my depressive episodes. Thankfully, that ended when I tried a sativa product for the actually first time a few years ago. I had smoked cannabis in school however later l gained that it was really an indica strain because all it did was put myself and others to sleep at the time. The sativa products, whether they’re edibles or cannabis flower products, are harshly energizing and supply myself and others the motivation and fuel to power through the day regardless of whatever obsessive feelings that are trying to consume my mind.