I think I realized that I had depression before I even finished high school despite taking a few years to do anything about it.
I took advantage of my father’s health insurance when I still had the chance and reached out for both therapy and possible medication when it became apparent that my issues were chronic and not acute. However, the first antidepressant I tried back then was not a pleasant experience. I tried speed once to study for a test and remember thinking that it felt like a weak version of the speed I had tried. Since both drugs operate on the serotonin receptors, it’s possible they share some similar effects. That particular antidepressant wasn’t a good match for me, so I tried at least a half dozen other medications for my depression and they all had varying issues to them. One of them gave me extreme manic episodes and resulted in a hospitalization that lasted a few days. Needless to say, I wasn’t responding well to pharmaceutical antidepressants and was starting to assume that I would never find a drug that would help with my depressive episodes. Thankfully, that ended when I tried a sativa product for the very first time a few years ago. I had smoked cannabis in college but later learned that it was probably an indica strain because all it did was put me to sleep at the time. The sativa products, whether they’re edibles or cannabis flower products, are extremely energizing and give me the motivation and fuel to power through the day regardless of whatever obsessive feelings that are trying to consume my mind.