When I started wedding planning I began having panic attacks.
I wasn’t second guessing marrying my fiance.
I knew it was all of the planning that was getting to me. There was too much to figure out. Who was invited, where is the venue, what is everyone eating and how much does this all cost? I couldn’t handle it. I started getting a tight feeling in my chest and feeling short of breath. When my husband saw my panic attack he stepped in. We agreed that a traditional, big wedding wouldn’t be good for my health. Instead the two of us decided to elope to a different state. We went to a different state, said our vows and had a nice honeymoon. When we came back our family greeted us with a small dinner. That was it. It was much nicer to plan. My husband still pushed that I go to a recreational pot store to pick up a few products. I started smoking cannabis flower anytime I planned our big day. When I would need to call about our flowers or cake, I would be a bit high for it. When I was booking hotels for the honeymoon, I would make sure to have cannabis on hand. You hate to do something so small but it was worth it. When I was on cannabis, I didn’t have a major freak out. On the honeymoon there was a recreational marijuana store near me. I ended up trying some edibles on the trip for something new. Now that the planning is over, I am not sure if I will give up cannabis completely.